Besmear

      Leaving things as they exist is a fair-enough choice, unless they don’t bother you. So what if no one cares to take heed of what I’m up to, it is only when deeds are done to please is there much ado in the mind of what conduct is portrayed even if nothing makes sense you tend to be tomahawked. It is the procedural downfall of self that is most feared for the affects might be long lasting. It’s like being in a war and being besmeared by anonymous blood coming in gallons when the throat is open.
      I had another (movie) experience My left foot. A triumph over odds. Cerebral palsy is incurable. 3 years ago I suffered from a similar condition. I know a little how it feels. The portrayal of Christy is amazing; Daniel Day Lewis is a genius. With utmost ease he plays the retard with perfection, no wonder he won the Oscar for that. It is the feeling of ‘left out’ or ‘You’re a nothing’ that must be overcome. But with someone like Christy’s mother-Brenda Fricker, things get easier. But I recovered fast, in comparison to a life long ailment, it took only a year… It reminded me of the smelly drugs I was given, I dunno why, maybe sufferings are related to bad smells.